dating adventures
The adventures continue…
Today my heart wanted to burst out of my body after I called the neighbor to see about meeting up today for drinks. She said she was excited for it… and I could hear it in her voice.
Ive got an hour to go before giving her a call and heading to her apartment, beer in hand. Im terrified and excited at the same time. I haven’t felt it all this strongly in a very very long time. Perhaps not since the first date with The Ex.
I did however go on the date with the woman from okcupid last night. She was nice, we had a good time talking.. but again no desire. and again shes a foot shorter than me. Soon I will probably have to figure out how to negotiate the first date into friends conversation.
For now Im excited about tonight. And I am excited about school. I think I will get so much out of this semester and working with the director. I feel more confidence and hope. He can see a bit of who I am in my last collection and I can see it to. A strength to come from.
Theres a few negatives gnawing at me in the background, but I am trying not to get carried away with them. I am trying to have some respect for myself, to not chase after people whatever place theyve had in my life, to not morph me into the listening convenience object they want.
